Rest in Peace my little Queen
- Jennifer Nisbett
- Mar 23, 2021
- 3 min read
Maya Nisbett
September 13, 2013 - February 21, 2021
I haven't shared at all about Maya passing away and haven't really been ready to talk about, but I want a place to keep some of my favorite memories and pictures of my girl!
Almost a month later and I am still in complete shock and I feel numb that Maya isn't here. It doesn't seem real. My heart is broken but I have been taking it a day at a time and finding peace that Maya lived a full life and was SO loved. She lived a life many dogs never get to and I will always be so proud to call myself her mom.
Now my little queen and best friend is pain free. She will be loved and missed forever and more than I ever have I feel like a piece of my heart is gone. Losing a dog isn't something that I have gone through before, but I can confirm nothing anyone says makes it better. I am not even sure that time makes it better either,,.. I think day by day you just learn how to live without them.
When I rescued Maya I was in my early twenties and she was almost 1. We truly grew up together. I was her emotional support human for sure. I keep thinking how our time was cut short and what I would do for one more day, one more car ride, one more chance to chase her around the neighborhood as she escaped the backyard .. any of it... all of it... the lazy days, snuggles, licking me when it was annoying, making me carry her home on walks because she was so stubborn.. haha.
Maya will be remembered for all her quirks and all the weird things she did that I was never able to explain how or why she was that way. Maya would do ANYTHING to be by my side and she has done a lot to be with me including breaking multiple crates, scratching and ruining many doors and ripping through walls.. A few weeks before Maya passed away she was diagnosed with lymphoma in a mass behind her eye- it quickly grew and spread into her throat and nasal airway. Even in the last weeks and days she fought so hard to stay here with me.. Maya was the bravest, strangest and most loyal friend. She was with me through the heartaches and hangovers of my 20s to watching me fall in love and get engaged in my 30s.
Maya was never happier than when she was within eye sight of me- preferably on my lap. I always felt at home when I had Maya with me. She's been my constant, needy little baby and I loved every minute of it. She made me brave and unafraid when I lived alone and its hard to remember a bad day that wasn't fixed by being greeted with her smile and wagging tail.
I find peace in knowing that when I look back at the last year of her life, that all her dreams came true. When the the world went into lockdown last year, Todd and I started working from home-this is something Maya has wanted her entire life! She sat at my feet or on my lap ALL day as I worked. Working remotely Todd and I decided to go up to North Carolina for a few weeks and brought Maya with us. Between the 9 hour car ride, hiking, boating, swimming and sunbathing.- she loved
it. I look back now at all those moments and will forever hold onto those memories of being with her while she was so happy and healthy.
We buried Maya in our backyard, and Joe sent us this amazing wind chime that is perfect and will remind us daily of Maya.
Some of my favorite photos and videos
Love you Maya!
Jenn
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